childcare

I'm beginning to feel physically ill at the thought of leaving the boys with someone else so I can return to work in the fall. My stomach & throat tighten everytime I think about it. I don't know how I'm going to find someone I trust with the two most important people in the world. I can't even write down my thoughts/fears regarding this. I just tried and it made the panic feeling worse.

Please pray that God will open & close the doors needed to make it clear to us the path we should take.